As a stay at home mum, I love my good days! It makes me a happy mum and a happier person and life is good!
However, for about a week (and still now), it seems I’ve been stuck in a never ending loophole of one crap after another. I won’t bother naming every issue because it’ll probably make me feel worse, but what I’ve realised it the affect it has on Aaliyah.
As a result of all the unfortunate events that take place, I am soo snappy and upset and sometimes teary. Sometimes towards Aaliyah because she’s always there and whenever she doesn’t listen to me, it feels like a stab to the chest – not kidding. Clearly I’m being overemotional and I’m trying to calm myself down, so I distract myself with YouTube diy tutorials or cleaning.
I spoke to my sister the other night and she pointed out that I’m overworking myself. Maybe she’s right.
My baby needs all my attention, I get it, but with the whole sudden move I feel like everything has been a rush so I’m trying to feel at home as much as a can and as fast as I can to feel comfortable. I go to sleep thinking “I miss home, I want to go home”. It’s sad, but I’m trying to move on. Leaving your own life is hard especially if you’ve built your way up and finally gotten what you want before it’s all taken away. I hope Aaliyah is ok with the transition and her new home, I’m
Trying to make her comfortable here like she was at home. Her room is all setup, but she doesn’t know where mum and dad’s room is just yet. And I still feel she’s waiting to go home.
Maybe it’ll heal with time.